This is my first entry here.

I'm glad to be home, but I miss Asheville. I want to sit in cafes talking about critical theory. I want to rejoin the political struggle there. I want to eat in anarchist diners and take my bike down those city streets again. I want to start the summer research collaboration on Badiou and Mao with my a-ville friends (my prof called our group "three brilliant marxists"), I want to write for the Asheville Global Report again, I want to listen to experimental music in underground bars... etcetera, etcetera. I feel like here I'm just waiting to get back, wasting time... in some pleasant limbo. The only thing here for me is my friends. I want to spend as much time with them as possible.

When I left the university for the semester a friend showed me a book she was reading by Alexander Berkman. She began the semester as your average liberally minded college student, and ended by telling me that she didn't know which was correct, Marxism or Anarchism. She had made the radical shift. I advised her not to latch on to one or the other as some dogma and that I am neither/both. My politics: post-Althusserian Anarcho-Maoist neo-Marxism. Damn that sounds pretentious, but that's the most concise description I can come up with.

Looking back on the semester, it was without a doubt the best semester I can imagine. The Hegel Seminar was amazing, and I left that course with a lot of new friends. I feel like I earned the respect of my professors. I learned a lot and changed quite a bit. By moving into political practice, I developed a better understanding of political theory. There were so many amazing events: concerts, films, friends, bars, meeting Badiou, political meetings, demonstrations, pamphlet printing, flier campaigns, marches and rallies; I gave a speech to a croud of hundreds and gave an hour-long lecture to 35. You see why I can't wait to go back.  

Today I will see about playing tennis and reading some more of Adorno's book on Hegel.

"Freedom consists in converting the state from an organ superimposed upon society into one completely subordinate to it, and even today forms of state are more free or less free to the extent that they restrict the 'freedom of the state.'" - Karl Marx, Critique of the Gotha Program